Neubaten 


 
No matter how brightly the milky winter sun attempts to shine down into the cross-town canyons of Midtown 
the streets are dim, dusky, in the cement shadows of the buildings.  
The streets have the dusty feeling of an attic, steeped in perpetual twilight.
The sunlight, which cannot, or will not, filter its way down to the canyon floor, glows on the tops of the buildings; the skyscrapers.  
Even the word becomes divine when bathed in sunlight, and spoken slowly, and thought about.

The emaciated sunlight reflects off the wet avenues, 
attempting to bolster itself into brilliance and blinding the people who come scuttling from the dimness between the buildings.  
These people, who spend their lives in the canyons, do not need the light to blind them.  
They are oblivious to the dimness of their streets, to the fact that the pathetic winter sunlight scorns them for the tips of the canyon, which they cut.  
The buildings spit and suck the people from their cavernous doorways in never-ending fits and starts.  
The stream of people, which cut the chasm of skyscrapers, is now insignificant in the shadow of its creation.  
They move quickly through the streets with the air of those who have walked the same route too many times for it to be worth noticing anymore.
 
From one of the skyscrapers a singular person emerges. 
This person is not bathed in sunlight, nor does this person have the aura of anyone of great importance. 
There is no reason for the street to catch its breath, to snag on the moment this person is spat from the building. 
Yet it does. This person moves with the current of people with the ease of one who belongs.  
Yet this person travels towards her destination without the single-mindedness of an indigenous city dweller. 
As this person walks, her gaze absorbs every harsh line of the streets.
This person sees that the pale sunlight scorns the paler creatures that created the magnificent steel canyons. 

This person sees that the tips of the buildings themselves are better loved by the sun than their creators.  
This person is a part of life in the depths of the canyons, which is always hazy and moist with the unnoticed.  
And this person knows, this person has thought about, the fact that "skyscraper", when savored and rolled against the tongue, is a divine word.

The steady tide of people who are blind to the streets on which they walk, to the paltry heat of the winter sun, which disdains them, notice this person. 
They feel her eyes caressing, seeing, the scene to which they are complete strangers, and, not understanding what they cannot perceive,  
they assume the gaze they feel is directed at them.  Although, this person no more sees the creators of the buildings, than they see their creations.  
However, they see this person, their only link to the world in which they live.  This person is bored into the memories of these people. 
This person becomes the only thing in their day that they will remember.


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(c) copyright owned by Sarrah Ward, 1999 Oct 27 

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